26 January 2016

Painful Primark Boots.




Jumper Zara
Jeans Topshop
Necklace Primark
Stole Select
Boots Primark 

These boots were down to £10 in the Primark sale ... You never get any size 3s left this late into sale so obviously I bought them in both colours. Lesson learned, if something seems too good to be true, it is. These boots are agony and the other pair are going back to Primark immediately. I hate when that happens.

Sweet Dreams 

Paula x

25 January 2016

Topshop Taffeta Skirt.




Top Topshop 
Skirt Topshop
Stole Vintage (Faux)
Earrings Topshop
Necklace Primark 
Shoes Topshop

I got this taffeta skirt in the Topshop sale for £5, original price was £45. I hate paying full price for anything - especially Topshop - so I'm always one of those nutters in the 7am sale launch! I wore this to work, hence the flat shoes, if I wants working this sort would look better with boots. Although next time I wear it I think I'll go for a band tee, lamest her jacket and my converse for more casual outings. It's a good skirt!

Last time I was blogging I talked about how I would get a full day of outfit deciding and photographing done. I did. But I don't like the outcome. The photos all looked so unnatural and weren't as good as I wanted them to look so we are back to the mirror selfie OOTD. Which I don't mind. I don't have anyone to take my photos so this is just going to have to be the way that is done. It might not look super professional, but I don't want to be a profess blogger, so who am I tryna impress?

Sweet Dreams

Paula x

22 January 2016

H&M Pineapple Skirt.




Top Topshop
Skirt H&M 
(For Sale on Depop @Brantastic_x)
Shoes Barratts

This is what I wore for a night out in Stirling for my friends birthday. Since I haven't been shopping since I left Topshop I am trying to make the most of what is in my wardrobe. This skirt for instance, I am selling it on Depop but since I couldn't find ANYTHING else I wanted to wear I decided to pull it out for one last time. It's fun, young (exactly what I needed going out to a student night in a student town with students who were very keen to know what I was studying... Very sweet but I'm 105 years old and that ship has saileddddd...) and keeps my legs covered since it was snowing outside.

It shouldn't be hard to make the most of my wardrobe since I have tons of clothes, but I'm struggling for inspiration at the moment, in everything! 

Blogging wise I have set up a plan that in my days off I will chose my outfits for the following week and photograph them in one day. I really don't like doing this because it feels unnatural to me, as if I'm cheating but I'm thinking it's the only way I'm going to get photos and outfits most days. I'm also thinking it will entertain me on my days off since I have no money spare to do anything fun, but more on that later...

Sweet Dreams

Paula x

12 January 2016

I Blame Instagram.

If you follow my Instagram (Which you should cause I post there a lot more often!) last night you might have seen my latest selfie ... I feel really embarrassed about it. I'm not one for deleting Tweets/Grams so I just wanted to explain myself and why I posted it, and why I'm embarrassed about it!

 Here is the gram in Question:

 

 

The main reason I posted this is because its been on my mind for a while, and I just got a bit fed up with myself and needed a rant! I did question putting it up for a second because I didn't want to seem like I wanted the attention. I thought I'd get a couple comments from my friends because I know what we are like and we are all total cheerleaders for each other and we comment a thousand emojis to each other, snap each other like "BITCH HOT SELFIE" and show it to all our male friends like "Look how hot so and so is" ... its just what we do and I wouldn't have it any other way.

However ... I got a couple more comments than I anticipated (Shit people actually read my captions) and that is why I felt stupid.

But then I thought ... no one is agreeing with what I'm saying, surely I'm not the only one who feels this way about Instagram? Surely I'm not the only person who sees an account and thinks; Why don't I look like that? Why is my life not that easy? WHY DO I NOT HAVE A PET PIG?

The key word here is filters, Instagram allows us to filter our images from what they are to what we want them to be and therefore we project an image of our lives that aren't real. Then when we can't replicate that in our lives we feel bad about ourselves.

I am not usually an insecure person about the way i look. 
When I was growing up I was constantly told I was ugly, from girls from boys even from people who were my "friends" so when I was a kid I hated myself and the way I looked. I think the fact that I was tiny and therefore already made to feel different from everyone else only made it seem like a bigger problem in my head. Skip forward to when I was about 15 ... I started wearing make up, fake tan and hair extensions and it made me feel better about myself. (I am so Anna Farris in House Bunny right now!) I stopped feeling ugly. Don't get me wrong I didn't think I was pretty either but I wasn't as ugly as I was before  ... I could deal with that. Anyway I hid behind that mask of fake eyelashes/hair/nails/everything until I was probably about 20 and then I just stopped caring. I realised that my looks were never going to change and that I should be grateful that I wasn't born with any real problems and I just accepted myself. I felt very free.

In recent months I have found myself getting more and more negative towards myself. I feel like the more and more I sit scrolling through beautiful photos of beautiful girls the worse I feel about myself. Its the the new wave of "Models cause low self esteem" but the models never affected me because they were models, they aren't real. Instagram feels more real because its real girls ... but here is the thing ... ITS NOT REAL!!

We have to remember that we only see what we are supposed to see. That amazing body on the hot blonde with 15k followers, we don't see that she works out 5 days a week 5 hours a day and DOESN'T EAT CARBS. The new Louis Vuitton bag "Just Because", we don't see the hours of "work" that her boyfriend put in to buy it for her by selling Ket to 17 year olds. That amazing selfie with fleeking eyebrows and perfect Kylie lips ... we don't see the 3 apps and filters used to make her look that good, then when you see her in Topshop you don't recognise her because guess what, she doesn't look like that in real life.

If there is anyone else out there who feels like this, please, be stronger than me and remember that it is all fake, its not important and there is no point in feeling bad because at least if you go missing everyone will recognise your selfie and you will be saved, not being filtered could save your life!

Sweet Dreams

Paula x


5 January 2016

Vero Moda Split Top.






Top Vero Moda
Skirt Topshop
Necklace Vintage
Hat H&M



Sweet Dreams

Paula x

4 January 2016

Only Trench Coat.




Top Topshop
Trousers Topshop
Hat Miss Selfridge
Coat Only
Scarf Topshop
Boots Topshop

This is one of those outfits where I'm wearing all my favorite bits from my wardrobe. The Only drape trench duster coat being my favorite Mac style coat. I love the colour, I love the fabric its really light and floaty but doesn't look cheap. Its also got really nice draped sleeves which I love because I think they are really flattering and again I think it makes it look more expensive.

Sweet Dreams

Paula x

1 January 2016

Bye Bye 2015.

THE BRANTASTIC LIFE IS BACK!

Back in November I decided it was time for an overhaul! I've become so lazy with the blog and I think a fresh look will really help me back in to a rhythm! I'm really excited and I hope you all like the new look! This isn't it forever, I need to make a new logo and some touch ups to improve how you can all follow me and get more involved via social media. I have basically talked about updating the blog for months but then crammed it all in to two days and now I'm pulling my hair out over HTML ... somethings never change eh?

I have decided to finish the year with all my 2015 outfits and a New Years Post, which I do every year and to be honest its probably one of my favorite types of posts. I love to look back and reflect, I think it helps to remind you of good times.

My last 6 months always seem to go down hill, which sucks, maybe December is just my bad luck month! All in all I feel 2015 was a good year, I'm going in to 2016 feeling very positive and ending 2015 on a good note, my family and friends are all healthy and safe, that is the thing I am always grateful for. I can't ask for much more than that.

 
Career

This is really hard for me to write about. Last year I made a vow that I wouldn't be a sales assistant this Christmas. 8 weeks later I FINALLY got my dream job and became a Personal Shopper. I couldn't believe it and I was ready to hit the ground running. That was the plan at least. Its a really hard job, its all sales targets, for me that is just not the reason I wanted to do it. Since I was kid I wanted to be like Gok Wan and make these women happy, turn them from having no confidence to making them feel amazing about them selves! That is my motivation to do it, and don't get me wrong I did get that opportunity loads! I met some lovely clients and when I had good days I was on cloud 9. But In retail there is always something around the corner to kick you in the tits and bring you back to earth with a bang, and in the end I was tired of trying and getting nothing but shit in return, With a very heavy heart I gave up my job. It absolutely broke my heart. I miss it so much already, but I was making myself ill worrying about sales targets and I was just losing more confidence every day, I can't go back to a place where I hate myself, nothing is worth losing my happiness for, I've fought too hard for it.

I've just started a new job that I am really enjoying! Its not what I want to do with my life but for now I am thoroughly enjoying it and there are lots of opportunities with the company, so you never know do you!


Love 

I have stayed completely single this year. Like, nothing. I have not Kissed a boy, been on a date, I haven't even liked a boy this year. Its been wonderful! I always joke about never meeting anyone and ending up alone, and of course I do worry about that deep down. Both my best friends have gotten engaged this year, and I not going to lie, that made me panic. Here are my two best friends settled and happy with their Hubbys To Be, in houses and planing families. Then you have me, 25, single, living at home and I'm still not where I want to be job wise, or in life really. On one hand I do worry that I haven't met him yet, I worry I'm never going to meet him. Then on the other hand I go out with the girls get so smashed and have so much fun and If a boy was to speak to me I'm like “Fuck off I'm with my pals”.

What are you doing Bran?!

Truth is … I am actually happy being alone. I feel so content, I love my own company, I love being free not having to deal with someone elses shit. I've also become super cynical, every boy I have ever been with has eventually been a cunt, a waste of time, why would I chose to waste my time on losers. But despite feeling like that my biggest fear is that I end up alone … That really scares me, and that is really hard to admit. I feel like its ok to be like that when your 18, but I feel pressured at 25 that I should be putting myself out there before its too late. I'm sure there are girls out there like “THIS IS MY LIFE” Why are we allowing ourselves to feel pressured? I blame Instagram, everything is Instagram's fault.

So Love in 2016? ... who the fuck cares, we'll see what happens. But if he is out there, he can come find me, I'm not out looking.


Traveling
 
This year I visited Barcelona in the summer. I went to Benicassim for the week and it was one of the best weeks of my life, essentially ruining every British festival for me. I will never go to a UK one ever again, its all about the sunshine! I was hoping to go back to Beni this summer, but this years line up gash. Last years Rock Werchter line up was INSANE so I'm keeping an eye on that for this year!

So for the past year I have been saving, and the idea is to jump on a plane to Thailand as soon as my best friends wedding is over in August. I've been inspired by 2 of my friends who earlier in the year drove off to Europe. They are currently in Thailand after seeing Europe, and their attitude is basically “we'll be back when we've seen the world”. For years I've wanted to go and I've always thought “you can go when you meet someone”, then seeing my friends go with such an exciting attitude I just thought “What the fuck are you waiting for?” So here we are 2.5 grand still to save and I'm off to see the world! I can't wait and Its honestly all I talk about. If anyone has any advice please feel free to get in touch! I need all the help, advice and inspiration I can get!! 



Hopes for 2016

In the end, I think 2015 has ended pretty shitly (New Word) but I actually feel very positive about it, like 2016 can only go up, and I'm not letting the bad stuff take over, I dunno … I just have a really good feeling about 2016.

Lets Go!

Sweet Dreams

Paula x